Be Happy

We only live once. Unfortunately, no one can guarantee when will be the last day in your life. We all deserve to be happy and we are the only person who can make it happen. If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, find a better one. If you don’t want to find a better one than stop complaining when the same old s**t happens just because you don't want to leave your comfort zone, or you're too in love to let it go, or you just don't know what will you do next when it's gone, no matter how much it hurts..

I know it sounds easy and in fact it’s not as easy as flipping a coin. But if you stuck on a bad situation that happen continuously, makes you feel terrible and not getting better (even worse), then it’s time for you to move on and let it go.. Pray, pray and pray. I do believe the power of prayers. I just watched a TV program last night and the motivator said, "God hears our prayers. If we have to repeat our prayer over and over again, it's not because He doesn't hear, but He thinks that we're not worthy enough to accept the thing that we're praying for".

That makes sense.. You can't just hope, dream or pray things to change the way you want to make you a happier person. Do something, take actions, until God sees that we're ready and worthy enough to grant our prayers.

Love,

Virna

Bad Thoughts

Hi, there.. I should be working on my thesis now. But I think it's better to throw all the bad thoughts here. Well, here's a question:

Have you ever felt like your boyf is getting bored with you..?

I'm not feeling it now, but it appears once in a while. In my case, sometimes that evil thought appears when he acts differently. For example, hmm.. My boyf used to make our photograph as his BBM's display picture (not all the time, but it was quite often). Well, it doesn't happen recently. I'm wondering, why? Then that bad thought came up.

I did ask him a couple of times and he answered 'Ok. I'll change it later honey :)' nicely and he forgot to change it.. It also happened once, when he answered the question with 'Ooo, do you want me to change it honey? I'll change it if u wanted to'.. Boys -,-" One of the most insensitive creature in the world. Why do you think I asked you that kind of question for? Well, I didn't say yes or no that time. I mean I wanted him to change it because he wanted to. Not because of demand.

Well it's just my thoughts. Maybe it sounds cheesy for some of you. I don't know. I just feel happy every time he shows our picture. It looks like he really loves me or he is proud to have me. On the other hand, maybe I wouldn't have had this feeling if he never display our picture or it was just occasionally.. However, I still love him :)

Enjoy The Bitter Sweet of Life

Life is such a roller coaster.

Good things and bad things happen in every second, every minute, every day, every year.

Sometimes life is just very easy, sometimes it's tough and it could be boring..

But every cloud has a silver lining.

One day.. Somehow.. We will realize why it happened..

We can't turn back time.

Like it or not, we just have to enjoy the whole process.

Enjoy the tears, the anger, the loneliness, the disappointment, the inconvenience, the jealousy, the heartache, the anxiety, the failure.

Enjoy the joy, the happiness, the laughter, the togetherness, the craziness, the butterflies, the excitement, the satisfaction, the success, the healthiness.

Always try to look at things in a positive way. Give your best and expect nothing

Enjoy your life no matter what.

Xoxo :)

PS: Those three stunning photographs above were taken by my favorite photographer Max Wanger

Where's The Spirit?

Where are you spirit?

Please come back

I need you right away

Childhood Memories

It's a beautiful sunny day.

I'm in my bedroom, sitting in front my laptop, reading a book to add some information for my thesis. Suddenly, I hear laughter from outside of my house and I see a bunch of kids playing badminton and football. I'm quite surprised. It's been a while since the last time I saw kids playing around. 

I live at Griya BNI Simprug. It's sort of apartment which were specially established in 1997 for BNI employees. Believe it or not I was the first family who moved in (June 1997). As time goes by, I met some of my old friends and lots of new friends. We've done lots of things together.  From fighting to friendship, from roller-blading to dancing, from birthday party to Halloween party and so on. Well, we weren't always be good friends. I mean, we were just kids, right? :p

On 2004 my family and I moved to Medan. On 2005 we moved to Padang. Finally, (thank you Lord) I came back to Jakarta and moved return to my lovely home, Simprug, on 2006. But things were different. Most of my friends had moved out. Although there were still few of them, we hadn't see each other or go out that much. Perhaps as because the tight routines that we had as we got older. There were new families who have kids, but they didn't go and play outside..

I was completely sad and I still am.. I miss all my friends here, I miss the craziness, the togetherness, the joy and happiness. I miss everything! :'( I really had the best childhood life ever in Griya BNI Simprug. Thank goodness I still can keep in touch with some of them. We had a quite huge reunion two years ago. It was very exciting and I was very surprised to see my old friends that I hadn't met for years.

Captured on 2008

I miss my girls :')

First Reunion 2009 :)

Well, I hope the next 'generation' (hopefully those kids outside), could make this place as joyful as it used to be. Amen :)

Wake Up Call

Good morning Sunday,

Good morning dear you in Sydney :)

I just finished Skype-ing with my boyf an hour ago. Well, actually we had some kind of miss communications last night which I really hate it. A LOT. This is one of the biggest challenges in LDR. Thank you for today's technology, we can now use BBM to communicate everyday. Therefore, the successful of our communication really depends on the good signal connection, creating the right sentences which are easy to understand and how we interpret the messages.

If the conversation is getting nowhere, we try to use Skype. Just like we did this morning. It think the inventors should have received a noble or something, hahaha. Though it's very helpful, but we still have to be aware of some factors (such as internet connection) that can make us lost in the middle of conversation. Still, Skype is not enough. Especially when we have problems that need to be discussed. Because we used to talk face to face and end it with a warm hug. But hey, yesterday is our 44 monthyversary and I'm so grateful that we could still go this far with all the limitation :)

 

Hijab & I

Alhamdulillah..

I'm so proud to be a muslim. And I'm trying to be a better muslim every day.

Although is tough, but at least I'm trying. I always try to pray (salat) 5 times a day. It was so hard at the beginning. But, Insha Allah I never skip a single pray since I went to college and I always push myself to read the Qur'an several times in a week. There is one thing that I'd  love to wear from years ago, but unfortunately I still have to collect the intention. I wanna wear hijab :)

I was begging to my Mom to wear it when I was on the sixth grade. I felt so upset when she didn't allow me to do that.  "If you want to wear hijab now, you can't take it of for the rest of your life. It means that you won't be able to wear clothes like you friends or girls on the magazines". And.. Yes she was right. Fashion is one of my passions. I still wanna wear this and that. I still wanna show my hair and my skin as well.

My mom just bought this shocking pink printed scarf. Cool!

I realized that it is a must for muslim women to wear hijab. But I think we must have the right reason to wear it. Otherwise, we will be wearing hijab just because of someone else, pressing situation or bad intention. Not because of Allah. Now, I still have to convince myself more and more. Hopefully I can wear the hijab very soon. Amen :) 

This is one of the beautiful ladies who inspires me to wear hijab. I discovered her video about a week ago and I suddenly became a big fan of her. She's Hanna Tajima Simpson. Check her videos on Youtube and see how she wear hijab fashionably on her website http://www.stylecovered.com/ :)

 

Good night

Have a good sleep :)

Bed Time

It's 11 PM

I miss my friends

I miss my boyf

I feel lonely

But hey, I'm not alone

I still have Allah

I love you God,

For always :)

It's bed time

Good night :)